Over

Both Sam and Eva were Kell-positive. We know this. Ironically, the two embryos we got from this cycle were Kell-negative. But they both were chromosomally abnormal, so there was no transfer today.

We had a moment of feeling hopeful...they looked great on Friday when I called for an update. 7 and 8 cells each respectively. High quality. But the PGD report came back this morning and it is as my doctor probably assumed it would be. Old eggs, bad chromosomes. I feel so defeated and pathetic. I'm grieving for the fertility that may well be gone now. And I can't quite believe that it's over. But how can we win this numbers game if I can't produce enough embryos? We can't. To start with six and try to produce one embryo that's both sound and Kell-negative? I'm guessing that when we meet with the RE sometime in the next couple of weeks, we'll be having the donor eggs talk. And I just want to lie in bed and cry.